Omg – My Dear Zeus-god
Ladies & Gentlemen,
Boys & Girls,
Introducing the likeness and image of the god with whom I grew up with. I now like to call him my formerly beloved, or rather much FEARED zeus-god.
Zeus-god for some unbeknownst reason to me was always ANGRY at me and with me. He was always DISAPPOINTED with me. I could never please him. I could never live up to his expectations of me. He instilled great insecurities and self-doubt. I could never live up to the standards he set. Just by virtue of breathing, I seemed to break some law or another of his – I was inconstant sin, sin, sin mode, thereby gladdening and satiating his ferociously fierce appetite for lightening-bolt punishment.
This caused me to always be looking over my shoulder so that I could gauge zeus-god’s fickle mood de jour. I was always ready to duck should a lightening bolt come my way as atonement for my being “bad”. And if I managed to duck the lightening bolt because he happened to be preoccupied with bad boys and girls in another village, well then, zeus-god always kept the eternal flames well stoked for my long term “warmth”.
A Herculean Effort
Fortuitously, or rather, an Ocean of Grace intervened and said,
“Let Us show you a different Way.
Let Us show you what and how
in and with Us look like and feel like.”
They brought books, teachers, radio/tv evangelists, and friends into my life that showed me how to TRANSFIGURE my fear biased and based zeus-god relationship to one of
LOVING DEEP INTIMACY with the Divine.
I learned how to develop a friendship with Him, with Jesus.
I learned how to make Him, make Jesus, my BEST FRIEND EVER and ALWAYS, my lifelong BFF.
They also showed me how to practice being loving, forgiving, accepting, and merciful with me, no matter what I did or did not do. They showed me that I am always WORTHY of these Gifts, and that it is i who at times can withhold these Gifts from myself. Lastly, They showed me that the more that my Heart grows and is anchored in these Truths, the more I will be able and capable of offering Them to others, to those whom I encounter.
The healing becomes the balm for others.
As our intimacy developed and grew, I realized, and still am realizing, and will continue doing so for the rest of my life, just how wonderful He is and just how wonderful I am.
It’s a day by day and moment by moment journey.
It’s all about Love.
Love is Good, always.
as i was
as i am
as i will be