Will You Still Love Me

  • Will you still love me if I do my own thing 
  • Will you still love me if I give you back the ring

 

  • Will you still love me if I go my own way
  • Will you still love me if I can no longer stay

 

  • Will you still love me if I break all of my vows 
  • Will you still love me if I no longer pull custom’s ploughs

 

  • Will you still love me if I no longer play the supporting role
  • Will you still love me if I take back my control 

 

  • Will you still love me if I take center stage
  • Will you still love me if from you I dis-engage

 

  • Will you still love me if I don’t play small
  • Will you still love me if I let my Spirit stand tall

 

  • Will you still love me if I stop blaming you
  • Will you still love me if I cater to my own debut

 

  • Will you still love me if I have my own thoughts 
  • Will you still love me if I dance my own waltz

 

  • Will you still love me if I no longer make you a priority 
  • Will you still love me if I follow my own curiosity 

 

  • Will you still love me if I go with another
  • Will you still love me if I stop being your mother

 

  • Will you still love me if I find my own joy
  • Will you still love me because I no longer see you as a boy

 

  • Will you still love me if I build my own house
  • Will you still love me if I no longer need you as spouse

 

  • Will you still love me if from my Heart I escort you out 
  • Will you still love me because in you I no longer doubt

 

  • Will you still love me if I end this co-dependence
  • Will you still love me if I chose transcendence 

 

  • My Dearest, Our time has come to a peaceful end
  • Let us take our bows and gracefully from this stage descend 

 

  • The journey was full of love, strife, and adventure 
  • You have been a most formidable Soul defender 

 

  • I thank you for your service of chiseling my ego
  • You contrived quite a marvelous show in a tuxedo 

 

  • Our Souls will always be untied 
  • In time eternal it had been mitred 

 

  • I know deep deep deep down, my departure, you’ll understand 
  • T’was our Soul Agreement when time began

 

Adieu, Adieu, into God’s Hands I bid you,                                                                     Irena As I Am & Mudryk, Together Forever                                                                      July 20, 2018

Subpoena

  • When a Love subpoena comes knocking on your Heart’s door
  • You can be sure that your life is yours no more

 

  • You can try to run and hide behind a rose bush
  • But assuredly Love will see your trembling tush

 

  • You can try and set up a decoy 
  • Hoping that Love will play with this toy

 

  • You can ask others to keep Love at bay
  • Thinking you’ll get a head start on your get-a-way

 

  • You can try to runrunrun as fast as you can
  • All the while relying on the might of a mortal man

 

  • You can pretend that you are someone else 
  • Praying that your lie does not before your eyes melt 

 

  • You can hide out in a friend’s attic 
  • Living constantly as a paranoia fanatic 

 

  • You can make your exit through the door in the back
  • Gleefully, once again slipping through the crack

 

  • You can speak untruthfully and tell a lie
  • Saying that it is not you but another guy

 

  •  You can continue this charade as long as you like
  • For Love’s patience and endurance is a continuous eternal stripe

 

  • But eventually you will tire thee
  • A while flag to Love you will guarantee 

 

  • For Love has a way of wooing even the most staunch denier 
  • Making a fool out of the most clever contriver

 

  • We do have free will this is very well true
  • But ultimately your Soul reminds you of your life’s hue

 

  • Your Soul has the Master’s Plan
  • To which it agreed upon to when time began

 

  • The world needs for you to show up and own your bit
  • Because then and only then will all the pieces of the puzzle fit

 

  • We are all closely inter-connected 
  • By each thought, word and deed the whole Universe is affected

 

  • Answer Love’s subpoena
  • Go Be YOU!
  • It’s a daily practice you accrue 

 

Love & Blessings,                                                                                                          Irena As I Am and Mudryk, We’ve got Love’s number on our favorites speed-dial.          July 19, 2018

 

Walk A Way

  • In my life I have walked quite a way
  • In my life I have learned to quietly, gracefully and peacefully walk away

 

  • There have been times and situations when my Heart was aching 
  • With each passing day into more bits and pieces the Heart was breaking 

 

  • Over and Over and Over I had prayed and attempted unity, healing, and reconciliation 
  • The totality of my dedication brought on even more agitation

 

  • My sense of self-worth had undergone massive deflation 
  • My being-hood no longer had a solid foundation

 

  • What I thought was the righteous life was actually a Divine aberration
  • Upon this realization my choices were continued slavery or emancipation

 

  • Oh! But! But! But! 
  • The fields were at last cleared and tilled, and the granaries full
  • There was milk and honey, silks, linen and fine wool

 

  • To the outside observer everything was perfect as could be
  • But on the inside my Heart was shattered, heavy, and unfree

 

  • Meanwhile, my Heart had tasted love sweeter than the sweetest honey 
  • This truth and feeling became more important than money

 

  • Oh! But! But! But!
  • My mind told me I can’t just leave and fly away like a queen bee
  • And then, it began, over and over The Voice sang Its Heavenly melody 

 

  • “Come follow Me, 
  • Come follow Me
  • Leave all behind and follow Me” *
  • (Arrrgh! The Holy Spirit can be very persistent, insistent, and convincing. And that is good thing! The melody was a continuous loop with no “off” button.)

 

  • Yes, I could have very easily stayed and no one would have ever known 
  • My double life, the inner and outer was mine alone
  • “Come follow Me, 
  • Come follow Me,
  • Leave all behind and follow Me” *

 

  • Oh! But! But! But!
  • What would “they all say”
  • If “they” saw me sailing away 
  • “Come follow Me, 
  • Come follow Me,
  • Leave all behind and follow Me” *

 

  • Truly, deep deep down inside I KNEW the choice was this
  • Stay put and my Heart would ALWAYS to me be amiss

 

  • In the final analysis of my life my Heart and Soul I would have sold 
  • For the price of keeping my flesh out of the cold

 

  • The Voice reminded me, 
  • “a lady does not live on bread alone,**
  • It is upon My Truth and Love that is your life’s solid cornerstone 

 

  • Seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven**
  • And I will be your constant and faithful intercession

 

  • Take nothing with you for the journey**
  • For you must cleanse yourself of the past’s scurvy

 

  • I AM your Source, your One and Only 
  • I will teach you to trust and rely on Me boldly”

 

  • Yes, I had a choice, this is true, but in essence, NO, not really
  • For Love had presented Their case to me so dearly and completely 

 

  • And thus, walk away, and a long long way, became a way of life
  • Because Love asked me not to cause any strife

 

  • Walked away from everything and everyone I did
  • Because this of me was Love’s bid

 

  • Even though a tempestuous storm was raging on the outside 
  • Deep deep deep down on the inside  Love kept me safe, dry and satisfied 
  • (A most wondrous miracle twas)

 

  • Walked away I did from the only life I knew 
  • In the hopes that Love would give me a “new you”

 

  • I can truly say that Love does know The Way
  • All we need do is practice humility, reverence, and obedience to the Divine Sway

 

  • You WILL be amazed and tickled too
  • At all the wonders that Love can do

 

  • And thus now, whether Love asks me to stay or walk a way
  • I know better than to struggle, it’s much easier doing as the Divine Say

 

Let Love gently, gracefully, graciously, peacefully, and lovingly show you The Way         Irena As I Am and Mudryk, The Love Followers                                                               July 18, 2018

Sources: *Christian Hymn, **Bible

Trust Me

  • When I did not know which way to turn
  • Love said, “Just you wait and go rest in the ship’s stern.

 

  • I AM preparing The Way for you
  • But you must have patience in all that you do.”

 

  • This was the hardest of Love’s wooing 
  • Asking me to just breathe and not always doing

 

  • Furthermore, Love reminded me 
  • And whispered into my Heart Psalm 146, Verse three
  • “Do not put your trust in princes, in human beings, who cannot save.”
  • Yes, that I already discovered, but trusting You I will need to be exceedingly brave

 

  • “Worry not about your life.*”, Love said
  • “I’ve got that all figured out in My Head
  • All you need do is show up and Trust Me
  • And I will gladly provide for thee.”

 

  • My old habit of walking by ego and sight
  • Had led me to much decline and into the deep dark night

 

  • “Why not!?!”, I thought
  • “I’ll give Love a shot.”

 

  • But how could I be sure
  • That I’d be successful as a Love entrepreneur 

 

  • SweetHeart, Darlin’, My beloved and highly favored one,
  • I own the cattle on a thousand hills*
  • All the gold, diamonds, stashed cash are in My Wills

 

  • The lilies of the field* and all the grain
  • Along with the stock markets I alone contain

 

  • Your body and Heart beat are all Mine
  • Nothing goes unnoticed on My Vine

 

  • My Living Word can create or undo
  • Anything can come to pass out of the blue

 

  • Your job is simple, listen and respond to My Voice 
  • And I will give you a life full of rejoice 

 

  • Please please, I ask of thee, be very patient with Me
  • For My timing is based on Wisdom, on Her Decree

 

  • When and if you begin to doubt 
  • Make sure it is to Me to whom you reach out

 

  • I will give you Abundant Grace 
  • My Love for you will show in your shining face

 

  • Go now SweetHeart and live your life trustfully and joyfully
  • For I AM with you unto eternity, loyally and playfully 

 

Worship the Living God with reverence, humility, and obedience,                                  Irena As I Am and Mudryk, Walking the Live Line of Faith                                                July 17, 2018

*Source: Bible 

Love Me Not, or…Maybe Do

  • Love me not, for your sweetness is more than I can bear
  • Love me not, for your sweetness may send me into despair 

 

  • Love me not, for then I will crave your tender caress
  • Love me not, for then I may become once again a mess

 

  • Love me not, for then I will yearn for you night and day
  • Love me not, for then I may lose my way and go astray 

 

  • Love me not, for with you I might become obsessed
  • Love me not, for then that may cause me great unrest

 

  • Love me not, for being with you I may need to change
  • Love me not, for then from my self I may become estranged 

 

  • Love me not, for that may lead to emotional intimacy, 
  • i into you and you into me, see
  • Love me not, for I do not know if I can handle all that intensity 

 

  • Love me not, for then there may be a Cosmic dare
  • Love me not, for then with you my life and Heart I may need to share

 

  • Love me not, for then my joy may be expanded beyond measure
  • Love me not, for I do not know if my Heart has room for this treasure 

 

  • Love me not, for my Spirit can not be contained 
  • Love me not, for my Spirit must have liberty’s free reign 

 

  • Love me not, for it has taken me a long long time to heal
  • Love me not, for I can not put myself again through that ordeal

 

  • Love me not, for love has cost me a fortune
  • Love me not, for I have reached the point of exhaustion 

 

  • Whoa!
  • Whoa!!
  • Whoa!!!
  • SweetHeart, Darlin’, My beloved and highly favored one,
  • Let’s flip on the Light switch and turn toward the Son
  • Let us remember all the good that Love has done

 

  • Let us remember that in your total vulnerability 
  • Love gave you the keys to life and liberty

 

  • Let us remember that in your sweet and tender moments 
  • Love blessed you with healing, joy, laughter, forgiveness, wholeness and condolence 

 

  • Let us remember that in your Heart to Heart conversations 
  • Love enabled you to undergo many positive transformations 

 

  • Let us remember that in your Soul to Soul exchanges 
  • Love boosted you to higher and higher elevations 

 

  • Let us remember that in your loss and confusion
  • Love planted in you a new vision

 

  • Let us remember that in your weakness and meekness
  • Love empowered you with exorbitant strength and Divine uniqueness 

 

  • Let us remember that when you thought were done and dead
  • Love bolstered you and you forged ahead

 

  • Let us remember that when you thought you were orphaned and all alone
  • Love built for you a beautiful place to call home 

 

  • Let us remember that in this great pause
  • Love showed you your Soul’s cause 

 

  • SweetHeart, Love has been abundantly good to you
  • Share this Good News in all that you do

 

  • You know now as you move forward 
  • Love is with you and on every corner 

 

  • Always and in all ways turn to Love
  • And your path will be lighted from above

 

Abide in Love with the Living God,                                                                                Irena As I Am and Mudryk, Writers, Rhymers, But Not (yet?) Rappers                             July 16, 2018

Poverty•Chastity•Obedience

  • The vows of poverty, chastity, and obedience I made a long long time ago
  • Over and Over and Over, over many lifetimes I solemnly made them a part of my life’s Flow

 

  • Deeply imbedded they had become into the constitution of my bone marrow
  • No matter what I did, their current, a strong undertow

 

  • These vows from past journeys kept pulling me back 
  • So that that I could not get on another track 

 

  • Likewise, this time round The Cosmic Wheel of Life “the call” I did get
  • But my Spirit instead wanted to roam outside the church’s safety net

 

  • My Spirit took over and responded on my behalf
  • In this world it wanted to taste the golden calf

 

  • It wanted to experience riches, lust, and total anarchy 
  • It was convinced my happiness lay in this triune key

 

  • But just like cotton candy gives one a temporary high
  • Now I realize that its deep Divine contentment and long lasting joy that I certify

 

  • Furthermore, my Spirit thought that this time round The Cosmic Wheel of Life 
  • It could do more good for God’s Glory by not being the church’s wife

 

  • Honoring my free will the Divine withdrew Its shepherd’s staff
  • And opened the gate for me with a jolly belly laugh

 

  • “As you wish my beloved and highly favored one.”, They responded
  • “Just remember We will always be here for you, especially when you feel desponded and despondent.”

 

  • “We will however still need to work on purifying your bloated ego in half.”
  • They said, “For it is still very necessary to separate in you the wheat from the chaff!”

 

  • On my Word!, to the core of my Soul
  • How was I to know that my journey would take me into the depths of Sheol

 

  • I was shaken to the core of my being with terror and fright
  • As all of my earthly pride underwent a spiritual shake-down by Divine Might

 

  • I had to wrestle and grapple with all of my inner and generational bondages 
  • I just could not fathom continue living as one of their many hostages

 

  • Inner and outer freedom became the sole purpose of my existence 
  • No matter how things looked and felt, I KNEW liberty was my Divine Essence

 

  • In these moments when I had been swallowed by black darkness
  • I KNEW that Christ’s Power was my only safety harness 

 

  • As the adage goes, there are no atheists (nor egoists) in a fox hole
  • And so I raised my arms up to Christ with every fiber of my Soul

 

  • For He is the One and Only One who willingly dove into death
  • So as to fetch our ancestors and give them Holy Breath 

 

  • By the Grace of God I made it out sane and alive
  • From all the many many, deep deep, Soul dives

 

  • It was the sacrificial Love offering of His Life Force being nailed to the wooden Cross
  • That my life while in dark despair was not written off as a total loss

 

  • It was the outflow of His Pure and Holy Blood
  • That my Spirit was washed clean from my ego’s mud

 

  • It was through the MIGHT of His Holy Resurrection 
  • That my desires became aligned with the Divine Inflection 

 

  • My ancient vows of total self-subjugation to man’s dogmatic dominion over me
  • Were “torn in two from top to bottom” by His love-fulfilling death on the Life Giving Tree

 

  • Thank You, Thank You, Thank You, 
  • Jesus,
  • Through all of eternity 

 

  • No longer would I need another to get access to God
  • All I need do is listen and get beyond my ego’s facade 

 

  • My journey into Sheol and pride purification delivered me into Christ’s liberty
  • Against all odds my life was rescued from negativity and from ending bitterly 

 

  • Now it is a daily journey of Divine Discernment 
  • In separating the Truth from the lie, there is no such thing as Divine adjournment 

 

  • Every Breath and Every Heart Beat is a splendid opportunity 
  • Of living with Love oh so beautifully, Be You To The Fully

 

  • My new vows are as such,
  • Poverty to the ego’s demeanor
  • Chasity to the Whisperings of the Holy Spirit 
  • Obedience to the Living Word of Love and Light

 

Worshipping the Living God, By the Eternal and Abundant Grace of God,                                  Irena As I Am and Mudryk, the Soul Co-Sojourners                                                                 July 11, 2018

Commit me Not

  • Unto the ages my Soul hath been bound 
  • From the springs of Life Eternal my Spirit could not be found

 

  • It was quite a conundrum to have awoken to
  • Neither forward nor backward could I make a move

 

  • It seemed I was destined to stay perpetually put
  • It seemed the chains would always be on my foot

 

  • But something from deep within my Soul 
  • This time round The Cosmic Wheel found its Light escape pinhole 

 

  • Bondage and heavy yokes were no longer acceptable 
  • This time round the The Cosmic Wheel it needed to be equitable 

 

  • But the commitments ran so deep and were oh so many
  • I could not shake them off even with money

 

  • Which way to turn I did not know
  • So on my bent knees before God even my bullish ego took a low low bow

 

  • In this moment of profound humility 
  • The Wisdom of Love whispered Its liberty

 

  • They told me it would be a long haul
  • Then They asked if I was up for this strenuous call 

 

  • They told me the journey would not be easy
  • Then They asked me if I wanted to sign a Trust Treaty 

 

  • I said, “Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!
  • Just please get me out of this in-finite mess!!!”

 

  • From that moment on I made a life long vow
  • To Love and Light my Soul I bound 

 

  • Earthly commitments now make me shiver
  • For I know not if I can deliver

 

  • Commit me not has become my new way
  • Flowing with Love gives me much sway

 

  • The yoke of Love is no burden at all
  • Truthfully it gives one peace, joy, love, prosperity, and liberty from being small

 

Grace in Abundance,                                                                                                    Irena As I Am and Mudryk the Soul Sentinel                                                                    July 10, 2018

Outside my Window

  • Outside my window the birds chirp away
  • They sing of their joy for the coming day

 

  • They flutter around from branch to branch
  • And sometimes they even have a little romance 

 

  • The tree welcomes them gladly with wide open arms
  • Their lovely way is quite a charm

 

  • The sun warms their little feathered bodies 
  • Giving them strength and making their life jolly

 

  • The earth meets their every need 
  • By giving them in abundance berries and seeds

 

  • They build their nests so high and secure
  • The safety of their young they ensure

 

  • They raise their families with such tender care
  • Watching them has become a form of prayer

 

  • Their presence is a Gift of Grace
  • It reminds me to slow down from the hurried pace

 

  • Their song greets me every single morning 
  • They faithfully show me life is a calling

 

  • If I ever feel on this path feel alone
  • All I need do is look out my window and in my Heart love is known

 

  • Friends come in a variety of shapes and sizes
  • All we need do is have a Heart that realizes

 

  • Living with Joy is really quite simple
  • Just breathe deeply and with nature let your Spirit co-mingle

 

  • Living with Love is really quite possible 
  • Just let your entire self to God become wholly bondable 

 

  • Living with Peace is really quite true 
  • Just make it a priority in all that you do

 

  • Outside my window the birds and the tree have tenderly taught me
  • That each day is a jubilee and all I need do is just be

 

With Love,                                                                                                                     Irena As I Am and Mudryk the Muse                                                                               July 9, 2018

Divinely Dismissed and Disseminated

  • I was so assuredly convinced of me, myself, and i
  • My path was set in stone from birth until I was to die

 

  • Everyone said I was on the right track 
  • As they kept convincingly patting me on the back

 

  • I thought I was doing mighty fine walking the straight and narrow line
  • When Love came down from their Crown and my life They re-aligned 

 

  • I was minding my own business and doing my own thing
  • Until one fine summer sunny day, I was pushed over the brink

 

  • Divinely dismissed I was from my former role
  • Then I was thrown into a deep dark black hole and told to “look for my Soul”

 

  • Oh, but who can search and know the uncontainable Mind of God
  • Especially when one is shown that they are a fraud

 

  • Thus my life had been turned upside down 
  • I was so dizzy and confused I felt like a silly clown

 

  • The metanoia Healing Work project began 
  • But first I had to leave the clan

 

  • Love said, “That will be enough of ‘as i was’,
  • Thank you very much for your service, but it is now a dead cause”

 

  • As I Was, was disseminated
  • As I Was, was obliterated
  • As I Was, was vaporized 
  • As I Was, was annihilated 

 

  • Nothingness became my new identity 
  • Voidlessness became my new country 
  • Oneness became my new family
  • Trust became my new religion

 

  • In the pit of my being
  • I no longer had any feeling

 

  • In the marrow of my bones
  • I was being cured of living as a clone

 

  • In this outer cosmic catastrophic messiness
  • I was on the inside open space and emptiness

 

  • My life took on the mantle of no exterior meaning 
  • My purpose for existence became healing 

 

  • Into the desert I poured out my former self-being
  • I was in identity withdrawl and deeply undergoing weaning 

 

  • I desperately needed another to witness and validate 
  • But my Soul would not allow it because the old co-dependency psyche I needed to abdicate

 

  • Somewhere, someway, I will never know how, from beneath the demolished rubble
  • My Soul slowly made its way up in a light bubble

 

  • I needed to know who will I be
  • Good Lord!
  • I dare not even ask, I will just have to wait and see

 

Irena As I Am and Mudryk the Great                                                                      07/07/2018

An Ode to America

  • I came to this country looking for adventure 
  • I found myself in many risky ventures

 

  • I came to this country hoping for wealth beyond measure 
  • In my voyage I discovered my deep Divine treasure 

 

  • I came to this country seeking solace and escape 
  • This only happened when my identity was reduced to novice, only then could I take shape 

 

  • I came to this country pursuing earthly riches 
  • Little did I know what awaited me were innumerous Spiritual transitions 

 

  • I came to this country with a heavy anit-USA bias
  • But over much time my Heart and Spirit to this land made a deep alliance 

 

  • As I travelled the land from sea to sea
  • I realized there was no difference between me and thee

 

  • In time I separated the people from the politics 
  • It dawned on me that being a world leader was no easy picnic 

 

  • As the years rolled on by and by
  • I felt less of an alien on the fourth of July

 

  • I began to notice my American tendencies 
  • I saw all my societal interdependencies 

 

  • Then one day on a return visit from abroad 
  • I realized, “This is my Home!”, and I was deeply awed

 

  • I saw I had been woven into the fabric of this country 
  • The wandering in the desert finally brought me into the land of milk and honey

 

  • This is the land where individualism is nourished 
  • Being hood, person hood, and self-expression are outwardly encouraged

 

  • The founding Mothers and Fathers rejected the yoke of the well-established crown 
  • They wanted to make their own rules in this new and virgin playground 

 

  • Brave they were when they took on the mighty monarchy 
  • Thus throwing out the entrenched blue blooded hierarchy 

 

  • In the Eye of our Creators everyone is a noble
  • Everyone is entitled to a seat at the banquet of the Divine social 

 

  • How grateful am I beyond words 
  • That the Flow of my life would grant me such rewards 

 

  • I came to this country feeling like a foreigner 
  • I now live and breathe in this land as a Soul Sojourner 

 

  • One nation under God we all pledge allegiance 
  • Living side by side in peace, respect, and kindness is our credence

 

God Bless America and All the Nations,                                                                        Irena As I Am and His Royal Highness Mudryk the Great                                                July 4, 2018, The 242nd Anniversary of the Declaration of Independence, or Sovereignty