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Instrument: Truth be Told

  • In my healing journey I have been an instrument of peace and pain
  • Peace: because I have been totally present to an another 
  • Pain: because in my withdrawal, the coldness made others shiver and shudder

 

  • In my wholeness journey I have been an instrument of inspiration and desperation 
  • Inspiration: because I have helped people move past their fears
  • Desperation: because I have abandoned and thus been the cause of many tears 

 

  • In my awareness journey I have been an instrument of lightness and consternation
  • Lightness: because with each insight I tried to pull others up
  • Consternation: because those who chose to stay behind  felt a snub

 

  • In my heart journey I have been an instrument of love and bitterness
  • Love: because I have opened up, been vulnerable, and shared me, myself, and i
  • Bitterness: because when I had to move on, most could not understand why

 

  • In my feeling journey I have been an instrument of joy and sorrow
  • Joy: because it felt so so good to feel and share all of life 
  • Sorrow: because inevitably, the ego would look for and find strife

 

  • In my expression journey I have been an instrument of liberty and decision points
  • Liberty: because I finally spoke up about the pink elephant in the room
  • Decision points: because each had to decide for themselves if the dance would continue 
  • with or without costumes 

 

  • In my service journey I have been an instrument of clarity and confusion 
  • Clarity: because I have offered insights to get others back on a prosperous path
  • Confusion: because how could i, me, possibly know their profession’s math
  • (I don’t, but on occasion, I have been a mouthpiece for the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit is the Source of Wisdom)

 

  • In my restoration journey I have been an instrumental builder and a destroyer 
  • Builder: because those downtrodden and poor in spirit, i have shared my bread, my words
  • Destroyer: because sometimes in order to move forward, there needed to be the cutting of cords  

 

  • In my laughter and joy journey I have been an instrument of the mischievous and teaser
  • Mischievous: because it is fun to play play play 
  • Teaser: because it keeps seriousitis at bay  
  • (NOTE: When I say mischievous and teasing, I am referring to playful and not mean)

 

  • In my liberty journey I have been an instrumental 110% team player and a complete narcissist 
  • 110% Team Player: because i put my mind, heart, soul, and energy into the team’s success
  • Complete Narcissist: because at the anointed season, it has been all about me, myself, and i with zero redress 

 

  • In my spiritual journey I have been an instrument of both light and darkness
  • Light: because i aim to live and point toward the Holy Spirit, FatherMother God and Christ Jesus
  • darkness: because at times i myself have ventured off into spiritual thoughts and practices, illicit 

 

  • In my religious journey I have been an instrument of love and law
  • Love: because the dogma bullies I have scoffed and scolded 
  • Law: because at one time i too had idolized the way of the molten and molded

 

  • In my intellectual journey I have been an instrument of thought and limitations 
  • Thought: because i helped others see a different angle
  • Limitation: because in my persuasiveness, others’ views have been cancelled

 

  • In my as i am journey I have discovered my divinity and huwomaness
  • Divinity: because I AM A CHILD OF GOD 
  • Huwomaness: because while in the flesh, i am perfectly and beautifully flawed 

 

  • The souljourn is a mysterious oxymoron of the dance between the contrasting 

 

  • In my soul journey I have been an instrument of invitation and closure
  • Invitation: because with with each new level I held my hand out for  continued companionship
  • Closure: because some chose to sail under a different flagship
  • And that is a ok, for each soul has their own path to take ownership

 

  • I have come to a place and space of peace with my shadows and my light
  • As I try to do my best being guided by Grace’s insights
  • Sometimes, I will disappoint those in the tribal campsite 
  • Sometimes, I will rise to the occasion and help others see in the night 
  • Sometimes, I will put myself in a position of openness and vulnerability to the shining knight 
  • Sometimes, I will fall and by Grace, ABUNDANT GRACE, get back up and rise to even greater heights 

 

  • Perfection is not the aim
  • Neither is finger pointing nor finding blame
  • Rather, living in cadence in the Holy Spirit’s Name
  • This is a life well lived and in the Divine Love frame
  • Each person has a Divine right to live their Soul’s claim

 

  • i am a Child of God, healing my wounds, discerning The Way and doing my part to bring about The Kingdom of God 

 

  • Seeking first the Kingdom of God and God’s Righteousness, 
  • as Jesus exhorts, 
  • will take you on the adventure of a lifetime,
  • Irena As I Am, Co•Creatress and Mudryk the Great
  • October 1, 2019 In the Year of Our Love

 

  • A side note:
  • Dear Frankie, St. Frankie,
  • For a long, long, long time i tried, truly i did to live up to your altruistic and utopian exhortation: 
  • “Instrument of Peace Prayer”. And, I still try. But, life outside the Garden brings out our redemptive shadows and shames.
  • One day, when my assignment is completed and I am in your neck of the woods…the Heavens, let’s talk.
  • Pencil me in please!
  • Ciao!